Allow God to prioritize things for you. We cannot lean on our own understandings or let ourselves become distracted with bad news or worries. God will make things clear to you as long as you are attentive to Him. We must continue to look at our own hearts and motivations, and also of prophets' hearts and motivations. Continue to watch your words, for you will have what you say.
You need to discipline yourself now, and gain that lifestyle of fasting and praying, so that when the time comes, you are ready to...
Stop trying to lead God. Break free from your own doctrines and allow God to lead you instead. Allow yourself to be uncomfortable, and...